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twenty-something//soon-to-be-teacher//an eclectic mixture of thoughts & passions
Today I brought my computer to campus to work on a project with one of my friends from my credential program. I opened up my computer, and this is the photo that I see. My friend looked over at my screen and remarked, “Wow, that is a really pretty picture.” What I wanted to say to her was: “Do you see that girl sitting to the far left, next to me? That is Brittany. She was bright, bubbly, and so alive. She was the kind of roommate where you would come home and walk in on her having a dance party in the kitchen, by herself. She was the kind of roommate who would make you laugh at the most ridiculous things she’d say, especially when she made nicknames for all of her friends. She was the kind of roommate who you could sit in her bed for hours upon hours with watching TV shows we needed to catch up on. She was the kind of friend who I shared so many things with, all of us girls did. We spent so many mornings piecing together crazy nights, we spent so many hours laughing together over inside jokes, we all grew, sometimes apart, but mostly together. She is gone. She is the kind of friend I wish everyone had the pleasure to know. I’m so lucky that I did.”  I didn’t say any of those things. Even though there are days where I just want to tell the world about this life that is no longer with us. I just smiled, and simply said, “I know, isn’t it though?” 
February 12th 2013 at 01:30AM | 2 notes
So happy I found this photo. These are the memories I hold onto tight. This is the smile I will always remember. 
January 25th 2013 at 06:20PM | 1 note
Weeks have passed. Life has returned back to the daily routines. And it still remains, she is gone. It still feels like it should be a dream. Looking back at all the pictures and watching old videos, she is so alive. How can she truly be gone? Death is such a strange concept. Still trying to wrap my head around the past couple of weeks, and always trying to remind myself how important it is to be grateful, everyday. 
December 28th 2012 at 12:56PM
I can’t wait to see you all tomorrow, give you huge hugs and to reminisce & remember our beautiful Britt. Thanks to Chico for bringing us all together. #tbt #friends #chico @sarah_alvarez @fpark @lauraplomgren @nbenavente1211 @kchristy2
December 13th 2012 at 11:18AM
December 4th 2012 at 10:37AM
December 1st 2012 at 09:58PM | 1 note
November 3rd 2012 at 06:22PM | 3 notes
October 27th 2012 at 01:50PM | 1 note
My Chico keepsakes. All of my favorite things about that little town. #college #chico #missit (Taken with Instagram)
September 22nd 2012 at 03:29PM
I want this right now. T. Bar, oh how I miss you dearly. 
September 21st 2012 at 04:04PM | 17 notes
August 23rd 2012 at 01:46AM | 9 notes
My attempt at dancer on the back patio // Chico, CA 
June 19th 2012 at 12:53AM | 3 notes
Little T. 
June 19th 2012 at 12:51AM
May 6th 2012 at 02:19AM | 1 note
I will miss riding my bike home from the gym most evenings just in time to watch the sunset. 
March 9th 2012 at 01:15PM